How I Got Happy

I learned a valuable lesson to feel more confident, happier, more present, joyful…stop thinking about myself. Stop thinking about what I say, how I look, how I act, what I did or didn’t do, when I’m hungry, when I will be hungry, if I need to do something, what needs changing and just live. Always playing and replaying social interactions analyzing myself and “how I did”. Rehearsing work meetings (when I worked), thinking about what I said and didn’t say. Trying to figure out if people like me…about the impression I made...but really that's none of my business. What I should have said in its place. Its so TIRING. So, I stopped. When I’m not thinking about myself I feel good. I’m invested in the people around me and this beautiful life. I have space. I’m listening. I’m a better Mom. I don’t mean I neglect myself from a place of giving up. It's really not about me. It's really not about anything. It's about living this life. I don’t have to think about myself, at length at least. I just live. I say what comes to mind (without overthinking) and move past things that I wish were different. I'm me. And TRUST I’ll know what to do when it comes up. I am safe, I am okay, I am life.