Mom Burnout Symptoms - Its a real thing

I was so burnt out I couldn’t imagine another day. I'd go to bed at night and dread the next day…I say to my husband “tomorrow’s coming” feeling dread deep in my bones. I felt so fatigued, so hopeless I couldn’t relax...EVER. I actually felt like I was thawing out at night. I had a hum in my body and was so agitated the sound of the baby monitor bothered me. My husband hugging me bothered me because it was slowing me down (I'm talking a 2 second hug). On this day in particular I remember I was watching my 2 year old while working and got a 3 hour cut and color then made it home in time to put him down for a nap. All with debilitating anxiety. I would live on my phone answering work emails, jumping on my lap top to make edits to work projects and taking directives from colleagues all at once. When my son would nap I would do as much work as possible in 2 hours. Then when I would finally log off at night I be answering emails on my phone. This was every single day. On Saturdays and Sundays I'd feel so much PRESSURE to recuperate with SELF CARE. BUT I HAD NO TIME. Then the Monday dread would come. Now, to be fair my son did go to daycare 3 days a week which was when I would do the bulk of my work but my thoughts on those days would run away with me. They would grip me and sometimes consume me with food thoughts, body thoughts, catastrophizing about my health (maybe I couldn’t get pregnant with my second baby). I felt constantly agitated annoyed and rushed. My brain felt like an absolute circus. I felt like I was barely surviving. I was going 100 mph not to mention the home work…laundry, meals, cleaning. Never mind any time for fun. Something had to change I was seriously suffering. I started a coaching program called “The Little School of Change” where I learned how our brains work from the outside out. My mood set my experience of my life. When I am in a bad mood I see and feel life as bad. When I’m in a good mood I’m seeing life as good. Take Fridays for example. I was just as busy on Fridays but my thoughts of “yes it’s the weekend soon!” “yes Fridays are fun, tomorrow is Saturday!” colored my mood as good and everything felt great (my same exact life). I wasn’t any less or more busy at work on those days. My anxiety was lower on Fridays because I didn’t have the thoughts of “oh no, the entire week is ahead” “I have that meeting on Tuesday” “I hope my son doesn’t get sick” “what will I make for dinner” then the judgmental thoughts pile on like “WHAT do you mean Adrienne, this is your life you have to suck it up!” "why do I suck at this?" "is something wrong with me...I did have that migraine last week" then I was off..all of this rolling around my head over and over revving me up. Coaching changed my life because it brought awareness and attention to the narrator in my head constantly telling me a story about myself and my life. None of it is true. Coaching validated me and gave me space to feel and explore and be curious about my beliefs about life. From that standpoint I’m able to drop my thinking (active thoughts I’m piling on) and live in peace. Try it for yourself…notice the thought you’re piling onto your thinking that just pop in…it’s life changing<3